Again

Long drives.

They make me think

staring blankly outside the window

Then again,

long drives make me reflect on my past

So many 'what if'

and 

too many 'I wish'

I sat in the car wishing

if only time machines were invented

Those times,

where I wish to grow up and be a young lady

I wish to take it back

Let everyone around me to stay healthy and young

As I look around now,

Everyone is aging 

and
this fact really scares me

Thinking,

What if everyone just leaves me one day?

and all is left behind is me myself?

Never thought I would think this much 

but

the idea of it keeps running through my mind

The fact that one day everyone will indeed leave and part ways

Ah.

If only Neverland is real

A place where nobody ages and not afraid of dying

Now,

Let me be frank

I couldn't bear the thought of my family will leave me one day

Who will be there for me?

Regrets?

I have many.

For taking each one of them for granted.

I have never been a perfect daughter nor sister

Mistakes?

Uncountable.

So many that I'm ashamed of myself,

But,

Happiness?

My whole life.

 the ones who teach me the meaning

and 

show me the reason I'm here today

Without my family,

there will never be me.

truly

 thank God

for giving me

such 

blessing 

:)